It's a weird feeling but some songs always prick me so bad. I was listening to the acoustic version of "Sajni" today morning and it did remind me of someone who was very close to me. The song almost made me cry inside. I can never describe the helpless feeling that I get whenever I listen to it. I don't know why but I almost felt like the song was trying to give me a sign or message that something's not right. Maybe or maybe not I should call that person up and try to apologize but then I'm scared. Life's too short for such egoistic mindsets anyway. We all do mistakes and screw ups but does that mean we should let our fear stop us from what we really want to do?
In my previous post, I wrote about how I don't care and stuff. It's true! It's all true! And it also doesn't matter if you judge me based on what I ramble here. Truth is I miss that person real bad. I'm just trying to figure out why :(. I tried too hard to forget and even move on but that's something I can't just let go of. I really need help.
Yeah, I do have new friends and a fresh new life but again that's not enough. My life still feels incomplete. I don't wanna wait for it to be complete or anything. I just really feel that that close friend could be and really deserved to be a part of my life.
Why do all good things come to an end?
Why do we wreck things that are so perfect?
Whatever is it that I did, I was wrong. I am wrong. I will always be wrong until and unless I step up and apologize and bring back that person in my life. But... it's too late.
I want to say sorry to that someone. I am really sorry. I know sorry is not enough for anything that I did to hurt you. Just know that you're the best person ever. I lost many people in my life. I regret losing you the most. God bless you.